Private message to Finnigan

[alt_jason]

All right?

Soz about the quick parting this morning. No time but to grab a café scone, a speedy cuppa, and then be off. Worked with the new trainees this morning and aff. Speaking of which, you ought to be one. Better with a wand than all of them.

I can try to have a word with someone about that, if you like?

Anyway.

"Terry Boot Longbottom?"

Not sure who or what he is to you, but is he giving you trouble?

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[alt_seamus]

Here's the thing. You know I'm from Ireland, you know Ireland's crawling with violent muggles, and years ago, the Lord Protector wanted to set up some sort of ward that would keep the Irish muggles from coming over here. But there was no way to do that without making it very difficult for the wizards, too, and my family -- my mother's family -- promised they'd keep things under control. They handed over some of my blood, to go into the regular wards. If they lost control of things, the Lord Protector could have someone use me, to make that ward against Ireland.

So you probably remember that bomb that almost killed Dominic Selwyn, at least if you were working in MLE. It did kill Ron Weasley's father. That was IMA -- don't know if they told you that, were you in MLE yet? High enough to hear? There was some story they put out, it wasn't true. Anyway.

So that was supposed to be it, for me. The ward needed blood, a whole lot of blood, and a death, and that's actually why -- I mean, I'd always known that could happen? And I wrote a note to Padma and to Neville, to say goodbye, and Neville decided he'd go to Antonin Dolohov because surely, he said, surely they'd come up with an alternative. And I was weak and said okay. And what Dolohov came up with was that someone related to me would work just fine so instead of me being sacrificed, it was my mother, and instead of Dolohov doing the sacrificing, it was me. Well, he helped with the bloodletting afterward. It was

I can't

WHY would any of them think I would be grateful for that?

She was my mother. She was the only person who ever

[alt_jason]

That's when I was a trainee, but yeah, I heard.

I mean, not really about you. Or your mother.

Who expected you to be grateful? Who said you ought to be?

[alt_seamus]

Terry fucking Boot. Longbottom.

[alt_seamus]

He said I owed Neville a life debt, and there would be all sorts of magical repercussions for betraying that, and I don't even know why I'm listening to that FUCKING MUDBLOOD who spent most of his life licking the soles of Carrow's boots. (Literally. I mean that literally.)

[alt_seamus]

And, I mean, I'm not listening to him.

It's just that I haven't been able to stop thinking about my mother, all day.

She wanted

to make it easier for me

I mean she was trying to protect me, still, even though

[alt_jason]

Seamus, I'm sorry.

This explains so much about you.

[alt_seamus]

Yeah, well, so that's the other reason I think Padma's mad if she believes the Order would go easy on me.

[alt_seamus]

They took me away and put me in fostering with Mr Rosier, I wasn't even allowed to write to her, from September 1 when I was eleven years old until the day I had to kill her.

[alt_jason]

That's fucking horrid.

Don't be too sure about the Order. I doubt Boot speaks for them, even if he does go by the name Longbottom now.

But you're not going to turn yourself in to the Order.

You're going to stay here with me.

[alt_seamus]

Yes. I am.

[alt_jason]

Ha.

I really am the biggest fucking idiot sometimes.

Let it be noted.

[alt_seamus]

What? Why?

[alt_jason]

I thought if we just kept on as mates and avoided the whole shagging thing that it would keep me from developing an attachment to you.

But look at me, with the whole "stay here," "don't go" nonsense.

Surely I'm not actually fooling you.

[alt_seamus]

I try not to assume I'm right if I think someone likes me.

Sometimes it's been wishful thinking.

[alt_jason]

Nah, you're right.

I'm just not sure what to do about it.

[alt_seamus]

Well, I promised I wouldn't try to kiss you.

So if you've changed your mind about shagging me, you'll have to make the first move.

[alt_jason]

I like this calculating side of you.

You don't want to think about your mother.

I don't want you to think about your mother.

Meet me in my rooms in an hour.

I'll see to it that you don't think about her or anything related to this for a good long while.

[alt_seamus]

I'll see you in an hour.